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Thursday, December 17th, 2009
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7:48 pm
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I was so unique
Now I feel skin deep
I count on the make-up to cover it all
Crying myself to sleep cause I cannot keep their attention
I thought I could be strong
But it's killing me
Does someone hear my cry?
I'm dying for new life
I want to be beautiful
Make you stand in awe
Look inside my heart,
and be amazed
I want to hear you say
Who I am is quite enough
Just want to be worthy of love
And beautiful
Sometimes I wish I was someone other than me
Fighting to make the mirror happy
Trying to find whatever is missing
Won't you help me back to glory
You make me beautiful
You make me stand in awe
You step inside my heart, and I am amazed
I love to hear You say
Who I am is quite enough
You make me worthy of love and beautiful
~Beautiful by Bethany Dillon
God is so good and so faithful. It's good to remember that.
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| Wednesday, December 16th, 2009
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5:36 pm - Preggo scare...
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Alright, having pregnant women all around me must be affecting my brain or something. For the past two weeks I've had awful morning sickness, and by that I mean nausea I cannot seem to get rid of and occasional vomiting (though I hate doing it!) So....the inevitable popped in my head. "Omg, what if I'm pregnant!?" I've gotten pregnant on the pill before, and miscarried, so I knew it was very possible I was again. But thankfully my test read a firm negative...it didn't even wait the two minutes to appear. It was immediate. *whew*
Of course Kevin was rooting that I was. I'm the worrier and planner in our family, and I know that right now, we can't do children. In a year or two, sure. But now? No. Financially, emotionally, mentally and physically I know I'm not ready.
The scare did do one thing, it solidified that I've GOT to GOT to get into shape. In my life group a woman my size got pregnant and you could barely tell that from her...full figured look, not to mention it made her life a nightmare. She had high blood pressure, gestational diabetes. Plus I'd love to be a skinny minny with a basketball belly. I think that's adorable.
So I reactivated my 24 hour fitness account and am heading to the gym daily....even if I hurt.
Christmas shopping is DONNNNE! I'm so proud of myself for the gifts I got...they are thoughtful and totally atune to the personalities of the giftee. Hurrah!
Kevin's still gone. I hate it! I abhor sleeping alone. If he ever died before me I'd have to get a very large dog to sleep next to me. I just hate sleeping alone.
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| Thursday, December 10th, 2009
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11:51 am
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I've had a headache for the better part now of four days....does it even qualify as a headache anymore? I power through it and try to be normal, but it's worst in the mornings and it's hard to be normal when your head feels like it will explode any second.
I took two sanity days off work because of this. I just couldn't go in a deal with things or look at a computer screen for longer than 30 minutes. Thank gooodness for sick day hours I've accrued. I need to use them up anyways. It's nice to get out of the house too for fresh air. The cold actually helps the headache just a bit. It's worst when I feel overheated....my nonna blows her heater high during winter months and it nauseates me to no end.
Oh, please headache, go away! I'm beggin' you!
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| Tuesday, December 8th, 2009
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5:49 pm - Livejournal nostalgia...Erin, it's all your fault
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Erin sent out an email earlier laughing about livejournal entries, and even though my stupid work filter blocked it, it got me to reading. I have since deleted my original livejournal "txchoirqt" years ago, but I lived vicariously through Erin's old entries, laughing at some of it, cringing at others, and crying at some of the more tender moments, like entries about our Italy trip. I have such fond memories of Erin making coffee as Patrick shaved and I plucked and primped for the day.
Like Erin, I noticed some things. For one, I had the loudest mouth in the south. In one of Erin's entries we got into a debate about how unprudent (is that a word?) I was with emotions, fights, and issues etc. I stirred up entirely too much drama, and boy was I dramatic! We all were. Erin, like you said, did we ever sleep?
This has led me on a total nostalgia fest tonight, looking back into my old xanga, and myspace. Even this journal, which I've at least had for two or more years.
All I have to say is thank God I have God in my life now. What a melodramatic, loud mouthed, angsty punk I used to be! God is so good, he's changed me in so many ways. Looking back, I've learned so much, the biggest of which is to put a lock on my journal. That's why those without LJ's cannot see my entries anymore. I still write daily. Something in me feels the need to document, to write, to ponder. But at least I know who's reading it. And now LJ has these beautiful things called "filters" which I use heavily. God bless 'em.
I think I've been inspired to finally get to a project that I've been meaning to do for awhile. I would love to make a scrapbook of high school photos. I'm an avid scrapbooker and I have tons of banquet, prom, and Italy trip photos that need a place to go. Anyone up for a nostalgia scrapbooking session?
In other news, Kevin got a raise. I'm so proud of him for that! He's grown up so much and I'm proud to be his Mrs!
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| Tuesday, October 13th, 2009
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8:33 am
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What are your middle names?
Marie, Charles
How long have you been together?
four years married, five and a half together.
How long did you know each other before you started dating?
a few months. He was in my music theory class.
Who asked whom out?
Neither. I was persuing his friend and so we'd all hang out but one day his friend couldn't come and we found each other on an accidental but very enjoyable date.
How old are each of you?
He's 26, I'm 24.
Whose siblings do you see the most?
Definitely his brother, but I wish it were mine.
Which situation is the hardest on you as a couple?
Finances, yuck!
Did you go to the same school?
Same college.
Are you from the same home town?
Yup, I'm from the GCISD area and he went to North Richland hills.
Who is smarter?
Definitely him.
Who is the most sensitive?
Definitely him. He's way more touchy feely
Where do you eat out most as a couple?
Anywhere different, greek places, hole in the wall asian or indian places
Where is the furthest you two have traveled together as a couple?
Italy
Who has the craziest exes?
Definitely me.
Who has the worst temper?
I'm Italian...so guess
Who does the cooking?
Kevin. He's an amazing cook. He doesn't need a recipe, he just throws things together and it comes out yummy!
Who is the neat-freak?
I'm OCD about cleaning
Who is more stubborn?
Me.
Who hogs the bed?
Me. I flail and kick.
Who wakes up earlier?
Neither. Both hate mornings
Where was your first date?
To Wendy's.....we were poor college students.
Who is more jealous?
Him.
How long did it take to get serious?
A week. Yes, we were engaged after a week...
Who eats more?
Definitely Kevin.
Who does the laundry?
Me. Kevin thinks the laundry magically does itself.
Who’s better with the computer?
Uh, Kevin. I can barely turn it on.
Who drives when you are together?
Me, because Kevin is a nutty driver with way more speeding tickets than I want to think about.
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| Sunday, October 4th, 2009
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10:56 pm - A nice family night
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If tonight was anything like what living with nonna will be like, I'll take it.
We ordered pizza and I sat on her bed and talked with her. Then we went to the table, broke out a bottle of red vino, turned on some Italian tunes and ate. We poked fun at each other, lovingly of course and played Scala Quaranta (roman card game.) Nonna beat all of us!
It was serene. I danced while doing the dishes to the 50's music in the background and then it was time to go.
Maybe this won't be so bad. I don't know why but my nonna adores Kevin, and since her fall and recent recovery she's actually PLEASANT to be around.
Hm. And a great bible study. We've become a little rag tag motley crew of a family. It's great actually, different races, ages, walks. I rather like it this way. Huzzah!
And I want to go salsa dancing. Random thought, but I dooo.
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| Monday, June 1st, 2009
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7:31 pm - Uptown Girl
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| Tuesday, May 26th, 2009
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8:16 pm - You might be Italian if.... (a sampling of a chain email and so true...)
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- you've had at least one relative who wore a
black dress every day for an entire year after a
funeral
- you spent your entire childhood thinking what
you ate for lunch was pronounced
"sangwich" HAHA to all those from High school who thought I was a wierdo for how I pronounced this. I am validated:-)
- your family dog understood Italian
- every Sunday afternoon of your childhood was
spent visiting your grandparents and mowing nonna's lawn
- you were surprised to discover that the FDA
recommends that you eat three balanced meals a
day, not seven
- you ate macaroni (pasta for the non-Italians)
for dinner at least four times a week
- you grew up thinking that no fruit or
vegetables had a fixed price at the
market................everything was negotiable
through haggling
- you were as tall as your grandmother by the
age of seven
- you never ate meat on Christmas Eve or any
Friday but instead had Bacala.
- you thought that Catholicism was the only
religion in the world
- you were hit at least once with a wooden spoon
- you thought every meal had to be eaten with a
hunk of bread in your other hand
- you can understand Italian but you can't speak it
- you have at least one ancestor who was a cop, mobster or
baker!!!
- all of your uncles fought in a world war
- you have at least six male relatives named
Tony, Nickie, Joey, Frankie, Mikie, and Johnny-boy
- you drank wine before you were a teenager
- your yard didn't have a patch of dirt that
didn't have either a flower or tomato/parsley/basil/
squash/pepper/eggplant growing on it
- your grandparent's furniture was as
comfortable as sitting on sandpaper
- you thought that speaking loud was normal
- you thought that cookie cakes, sugared almonds and the
tarantella were all common at all weddings
- your mother was overly protective of the males in the
family no matter how old they were Oh God yes!
- every lunch meat you ate as a kid ended in a vowel
- you know what lemon ice is
- you know what real "black" coffee is
- you always had chocolate and nuts with the
fruit course at dinner
- everything tastes good with parmigiano
- you had coffee with lots of milk (latte cafe)
for breakfast by the time you were three years old
- left over cold spaghetti is one of the major
food groups
- air conditioning was sitting on the fire
escape or going up on the roof on hot nights
- any adult could yell at you if you got out of
line
- you only ate fried eels and bacala on
Christmas Eve
-Your mom's favorite hobby is cleaning. No, but my nonna's is
- cookouts always had at least one tray of
baked macaroni
- you thought that "fat", "little", skinny",
"tall", "black", "bald", "baby", "big-nose",
"cock-eyed" were actually part of peoples given names
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| Tuesday, May 5th, 2009
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2:38 pm
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| Monday, April 6th, 2009
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6:08 pm - Italian Earthquake
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| Wednesday, February 4th, 2009
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8:26 pm
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Hey guys! Stefani from bella-photography.net is giving away a free photo session every month for the entire year of 2009. Check it out at her blog! Don’t forget to comment for your chance to win too!
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| Sunday, January 25th, 2009
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5:00 pm
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| Tuesday, January 13th, 2009
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5:39 pm - 24?
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Birthdays always loose excitement as time goes on. At 16 I could legally drive, at 18 I could enlist in the army, buy porn or cigarettes, at 21 I could legally drink.
But what is good or even exciting about 24? Nadda that's what. It's a boring one.
I have no idea what I want for my birthday or what I'd like to do. I think a quiet gathering of friends would be good, and maybe a quiet dinner with kevin somewhere...I think I have a buy one get one free for Texas de Brazil.
I really like birthdays, especially after my dad died. I like to celebrate because I'm here, I'm healthy, and for the time being I'm alive. Life is so short, it really is. Time goes by quickly and we never know when we'll die or have our health taken from us. Even the boring birthdays remind me to be thankful that I'm still here.
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| Wednesday, June 25th, 2008
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4:31 pm
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"The Big Read reckons that the average adult has only read 6 of the top 100 books they've printed**."
1) Look at the list and bold those you have read.
2) Italicize those you intend to read.
3) Underline the books you LOVE.
4) Reprint this list in your own LJ so we can try and track down these people who've read 6 and force books upon them
**note that this is not the top 100 books of all time
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| Monday, June 23rd, 2008
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8:00 pm
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Bored Meme...
Favorite food: White Cheddar popcorn, suppli
Favorite movie: at the moment...Little women
Favorite TV show: Army Wives, I'm hooked.
Favorite dish: eggplant parmesan! Yum!
Favorite person: My husband!
Favorite hang out: My big overstuffed chair in the living room + a glass of cold tea= awesomeness
Favorite game: Scala Quarante...it's an italian card game...
Favorite time of day: Late morning on sunday when I'm not in church
Favorite season: Fall...though Texas doesn't have one.
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| Tuesday, June 17th, 2008
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7:26 pm - Fake nails
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I've never really liked them. I think they look unnatural if they are done wrong but I'm going to have to do it! I can't grow my own nails...I bite them too much.
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| Sunday, March 9th, 2008
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4:38 pm - Happy birthday to Katrina!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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| Wednesday, February 27th, 2008
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2:18 pm - Come on, take a guess....stolen from lots of people....
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1. Pick 10 of your favorite movies.
2. Go to IMDb and find a quote from each movie.
3. Post them here for everyone to guess.
4. Strike it out when someone guesses correctly, and put who guessed it and the movie.
5. NO GOOGLING/using IMDb search or other search functions. (Because cheaters never prosper)
1."Feminine weaknesses and fainting spells are the direct result of our confining young girls to the house, bent over their needlework, and restrictive corsets. "from Little Women(Kat)
2."All women have a garden, and a garden needs a big hose to water it... or a small hose... as long as it works. " from Now and Then (fitjourney)
3."You take a look at her. Cause once you step on that bus you aint got your mama no more. You got your brothers on the team and you got your daddy. You know who your daddy is, doncha? Gary, if you want to play on this football team, you answer me when I ask you who is your daddy? Who's your daddy, Gary? Who's your daddy?" from Remember the Titans (fitjourney)
4.Nobody got this one but its from Bed of Roses "Every now and then everybody is entitled to too much perfection."
5."I was born jaundiced. Once I sat on a toilet seat at a truck stop and caught hemorrhoids. And I've learned to live with this chicken bone that's been lodged in my throat for the past three years. So I knew Dad would be devastated when he learned of my latest affliction." From My Girl (Katherine)
6.Nobody guessed this one either but it's from Sister Act "Oh, really? From what I here, your singing career was almost non-existant, and your married lover wants you dead. God has brought you here. Take the hint. "
7."Sure you did. You always do. You stand in class and tell us to look beyond the image, but you don't. To you a housewife is someone who sold her soul for a center hall colonial. She has no depth, no intellect, no interests. You're the one who said I could do anything I wanted. This is what I want." from Mona Lisa Smile (Kat)
8. "You've got an overdeveloped sense of vengeance. It's going to get you into trouble someday "from The Princess Bride (Cassie)
9. "Things go wrong. You can't explain it, you can't predict it. Killing yourself wo'nt bring your dad back. I'm sorry that he died, but that was a long time ago. You gotta move on. Stop living in the past, and look what you got right in front of you." from Twister (Erin)
10."So it's not gonna be easy. It's gonna be really hard. We're gonna have to work at this every day, but I want to do that because I want you. I want all of you, for ever, you and me, every day. Will you do something for me, please? Just picture your life for me? 30 years from now, 40 years from now? What's it look like? If it's with him, go. Go! I lost you once, I think I can do it again. If I thought that's what you really wanted. But don't you take the easy way out." from The Notebook (newsong, Erin)
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| Sunday, October 21st, 2007
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10:19 pm
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I don't know why haircuts excite me but I have long bangs now! and they loooook cute. I'll post a pic once I've uploaded one. We took the cutest one of kev and I before heading out to a nice dinner at RMG.
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2:01 pm - My grandmother has blue hair!
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My mom happens to be in NYC this weekend and so we were told to take care of nonna. Of course that meant doing whatever she needed...and today she wanted us to plant some azaleas in her backyard!
So as I'm driving up I see her opening her garage...this little 82 year old italian who speaks horrible english....and I blink...not believing what I see...
My God! HER HAIR IS BLUE?!
Of course I didn't have the heart to tell her.
But man, what a funny lady.
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